selfishness hinders

Job 41, 42 and Matthew 16

Big passage today. Lots to cover. As usual, I’ll start in the Old Testament. Job 41 and 42 are different from each other. Job 41 is God talking about the leviathan. This creature exemplifies God’s power unlike any other. Verses 3-4 and 10-11 were the most powerful to me. God asks Job in verse 10, “Who then is he who can stand before me?” I love that. God is scary! “Whatever is under the whole heaven is mine. Chapter 42 was Job’s response, and God’s consequent reactions to his response. Job reduced himself and asked God’s forgiveness (v6), and God blessed him for it (v17).

Matthew 16 seems to really be answering lots of my questions. For one, why did Matthew record two accounts of Jesus feeding the masses? The two stories were so similar, and seemed so very redundant. Verse 10 gave me some insight. But I’m getting ahead of myself. The chapter opens with Jesus being pressed by the Pharisees and Sadducees [sad-you-see] for some signs to prove his claims. Jesus shuts them right down in verse 4.

An evil and adultrous generation seeks for a sign, but no sign will be given it except the sign of Jonah.

What is the sign of Jonah? I don’t know. But I thought of my generation, how we are always saying “Prove it.” And the biggest issue is that we don’t know anything is wrong.

In 5-12, Jesus uses some figurative language with the disciples, and they totally miss it. But the point was his warning of the Pharisees’ teachings. This was the section that needs the account of the four thousand in chapter 15. Jesus asks them specifically about these two events, saying basically, What do I have to do to show you?!

Verses 13-20 are labeled “Peter Confesses Jesus as the Christ.” This is an honest title, but it seemed to be so much more to me. I loved verse 15. “But who do you say that I am?” It’s always a personal choice, this life. We can’t even go by the fact that it is true. You’ve still got to believe, just as Peter does (eventually). And Jesus blesses Peter’s confession. Big time. Just read the book of Acts. Peter is hard-core (but, of course, flawed). I was kind of confused why Jesus told them not to tell anyone that he was the Christ. It’s not confusing, really, just interesting.

The last part of Matthew 16 is broken into two sections, but I felt like they should be kept together. It is one scene, where Jesus foretells his death and ressurrection, and Peter gets kind of upset about it. He told Jesus he wouldn’t let it happen. Jesus rebukes him, even calls him Satan. Peter was only thinking selfishly and not “on the things of God.” Right after that, Jesus turns to the others, as I see it, and explains to the group that we must die to our own desires and think only what is good in the eyes of God. This message to them seems a response to Peter’s selfishness. Verse 28 seemed odd, again. After praying about it, I think it has something to do with quality of life for evil people. I’ve heard people say, “Why do bad people live so comfortably and have so much when good people are getting screwed over?” And this just says to me, that Jesus will serve them what they’ve earned at the end of our days. Another bit on selfishness.

Lord, thank you so much for just being you. I am so grateful for all that you are. Please stay with me and help me to not think so selfishly. Let my desires die and let me live only for you. Thank you for your Word and your teaching. I love you, Jesus.

Lord, save me

Job 34, 35 and Matthew 14:22-36

Job is starting to confuse me. In chapters 34 and 35, Elihu is rebuking Job. Now, I thought it was about Elihu shutting Job up, because Job was being a weiner, but I’m not getting that vibe today. It just seems to me that Elihu is making sure that everyone knows God is God, and we are not. In 34:21-27, he describes why God doesn’t need men.

For his eyes are on the ways of a man,
and he sees all his steps.
There is no gloom or deep darkness
where evildoers may hide themselves.
For God has no need to consider a man further,
that he should go before God in judgment.
He shatters the mighty without investigation
and sets others in their place.
Thus, knowing their works,
he overturns them in the night, and they are crushed.
He strikes them for their wickedness
in a place for all to see,
because they turned aside from following him
and had no regard for any of his ways

I guess that’s the point. God was fine before we came along, before he created us, that is, and we lost sight of it pretty easily.

Let’s jump to Matthew 14. This section of Scripture is about when Jesus walks on water. Interestingly, my church just covered this story, only as it is recorded in John. The verses that really jumped out to me were verses 24 and 30. I thought (speaking first of verse 24) of how true it is that I feel like, so often, I’m off alone in a boat in the middle of the sea, with waves crashing down on me, and I’m afraid for my life. Being in college, that feeling is recurring. What am I going to do? There is this big thing that I can’t control and its trying to kill me! And I’m so far out here, that there’s no hope of getting away, either. And I kept reading and Jesus comes. He was there just in time. And he does that a lot, I’ve noticed. I’m reading Wild at Heart by John Eldredge, and he talks about God’s wild spirit, how he loves to come through for us. But then I read verse 30. Peter is freakin’ walking on water with Jesus! And he still fell. How does that happen? Why is it that I have so many great times with Jesus, then, in my moment of truth, I fail?

Jesus calms the storm, and they move on to go heal a bunch of people in Gennesaret. Peter doesn’t get an answer to this question either, but Jesus does say he has little faith. How does my faith look?

I am going to remind myself today that God doesn’t need me, and that he was just fine before me. But I know that he loves me, too, because he calms the storm after letting me walk on water with him.

Lord, thank you for what you are doing in me. You are such a great God, and I worship you. Help me to trust in you, more every day. My heart’s desire is to see your face, and see you smile down on me. I love you so much, Jesus. Thank you for your Word and your teaching.

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